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Rick Halkyard: I can’t save you

Posted by in Faith | October 8, 2012

Thinking of one piece of advice that I would’ve given to myself my freshmen year of high school is something I don’t have to consider greatly. The answer for me, specifically, is obvious. I would’ve sat me down and very bluntly told myself that I do not have the ability to save someone. Nor do I have the ability to be someone else’s foundation or source of security.

I befriended a girl my sophomore year of high school and soon afterwards, we entered into a relationship. I didn’t realize this at the time, but my effort to maintain and build that relationship was completely selfish. I made that relationship my everything – it was my salvation. She gave me purpose and for the first time, I was happy.

However, whenever that relationship was harmed, whether it was by me or someone else, it shook my foundation and I felt that everything around me was crumbling. After a worrisome and exhausting year of doing that, I got a call from her one night to come over to her house and that was all she said. On the ten minute drive from my house to hers I kept thinking that she was going to break it off. When I got to her house, I found out that that wasn’t the case. She told me over the course of three hours and streams of tears that she had an eating disorder call CE (Compulsive Eater). This began a difficult three years of regret…

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